the super duper last thing

When I’m putting Squirmy to bed, she makes sure to call to me a few times to stall and I’ll go right back in to see what she’s thought of to tell me. After the third or fourth time, I start to get a little peeved. She says, “This is the super duper last thing, Mama!”

When I started kissingglue, I needed an outlet. It felt like I had so much to say and if I didn’t get it out, I was going to burst. I was not only willing to share my experience but needed to share it as a way to help me move forward. So I ended up living quite publicly.

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OLYMPUS DIGITAL CAMERAI can’t even put into words how much this blog has helped me get through the hardest year of my life. I’m not done grieving, I’m not done healing, but I’m at a place where I’m done doing so here.

DSCN0701Thank you so much for reading this, for giving me feedback and support, for taking a step back and looking at your own lives and putting things into perspective. I have appreciated it all.


This song came out when Greg and I first started dating. We listened to it a lot when we had time to just be us and in love. It’s a little haunting now but still so beautiful. I hope you’ll take the time to just stop and realize how much you have and let all your sweeties know how much you love and appreciate them.

This is the super duper last thing…

Thank you. I love you.



6 Responses to the super duper last thing

  1. Linda Andreozzi 06/18/2014 at 7:53 am #

    dear Mariah, what you did here was so profound and beautiful. thanks a for letting us into your life this past year. I have so much respect for you and how you’ve lived your grief. You are so beautiful. Ai love you sweetie. well done.

  2. Nicole Heiman 06/18/2014 at 8:30 am #

    Mariah –

    Thank you for sharing your experiences here so willingly and eloquently and nakedly. It’s all so beautifully human. I cannot express the perspective I now have and how I will do things differently/better going forward in my life. And althought I’ve never had the pleasure of meeting you, I send you and your girls buckets full of light & love regularly.

    My offer for some free massage still stands so if you ever find yourself back in Madison and in need of some body work, please don’t hesistate to look me up. My email is and my cell is 608-445-5425.

    Take sweet care! Best of luck in the years to come.


  3. Jenny Vater 06/18/2014 at 12:51 pm #

    Thank you for sharing your life and story. I have enjoyed learning many things from you and getting to know you better. I am wondering if this site will still be up and “out there”. I would like to share it with my cousin’s wife soon.

    • Mariah 06/19/2014 at 8:10 pm #

      Yes, Jenny, I’m planning on just leaving this up so it should still be live for awhile. :)

  4. Scott, Lisa, and Anna 06/18/2014 at 10:49 pm #

    We wish you all the best!

  5. Auntie MK 06/22/2014 at 11:00 pm #

    You’ve managed quite a journey, Mariah. I have marveled at your progress and growth, from the profound pain and loss to the steps forward to carry on for yourself and the girls. All the while, creating a path scattered with examination, memories and rituals that have clearly helped you and, those who love you, share in your story. Thank you and much love.


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